100% and not Complete!

I am so happy to say that I reached my goal early of 75 hours or more, on or before August 24th, 2011!!!  At the same time, I am even more happy to have realized that it is not about my goal, it was about the journey, and how I could turn a "goal" into a lifestyle!  Therefore, I will not ever be complete on self-honoring as this is a beingness I choose to adapt constantly!

Let me explain that a little.  What I learned in the last 76 hours of Self-honoring, was that I now cannot wait to see what the next 76 hours will be like!  And realizing that reaching another milestone of another 76 hours in my life, doesn't even require logging the hours in a spreadsheet, or blogging on it.  It just requires "being" self-honoring!  Now, can those mechanisms help me to remain focused, and stay in self-honoring, for sure.  However, having this awareness changes everything, and shows me I can be "present" in any given situation.

In other words, the goal was all about learning how to make that shift into being self-honoring, not really about the goal itself.  So taking the time and effort to put my myself in focus, was just a way to create a habit of awareness.  I now see that any "beingness" I would like more of in my life, if I just set out a mechanism to shift my focus into that beingness, I will begin to automatically "be" that, and will create a habit of awareness to "be" there in the blink of an eye, if so desired.

Also, I realized that "Self-honoring" is just an adjective, of where I really desire to be, which is "Authentically Present".  Don't get me wrong, it's a great adjective, and great place to be, and I believe it itself to be a mechanism to where I want to be, and remain.  See, being Authentically Present for me is choosing to be "HERE" when I would typically choose to take a mental vacation, or maybe even go numb.  And the alternative is generally self-destructive, of course.

E.g., I did not have a lot of free time in my schedule today, and wanted to connect with my mom, sister, and brother.  However, I made time, and a great example of what I'm getting at is my conversation with my Mother.  I can easily find myself kicking myself for not creating more time to see my mom, and family - "I can't believe it Brett, you purchased a plane for many reasons, and one big one was to see your family more, and you are totally missing out".  Then I would typically take that energy, call up that family member, and not be present at all, just be beating myself up and either telling them about it, or trying to hide it.  But today was different - I chose to call my family, and great example was with my mom, where I decided that even for these few moments, I was going to be Authentically Present, and remember this call, no matter what we discussed.  That awareness is what I have really been after!!!!!

I will continue to blog, and to update with % complete!

79.84 hours to date = 106%  Great Feeling!!