Awakening

I am determined to "Play Full Out" on my Self-honoring goal, and yet that tends to sound like an oxymoron to me.  I have always had an idea of "Self-honoring", and that if taken to a "Play Full Out" level would really just be someone doing nothing productive, everything for them self, and lounging around all the time.  I have realized that that is my program on Self-honoring, and I have found it to be nothing like that.

I have been marveling at how when I take time out of my day/week/month/life to fill me up, all the productive activities have been "easy" to do.  All the scarcity I was having around thinking "I don't have the time to self-honor", really was that I didn't have the time not to.  My schedule is so less rushed now, and my income has been positively growing (which of course is how I tend to measure my "time").  Regardless of income however, I am noticing that I don't mind taking on work, or projects, or business activities when I am rested, filled up, and happy from the time I have taken for me.

Just this week I have seen accounts line up with my company, and opportunities arise that I had been burying myself to deep to even see.  Looking with "soft eyes" has made such a difference.

My projects in software development have just been flowing.  I have happy clients, happy team, and happy Managing Partner, which seems a direct correlation to a happy me!

It's as though I have been given about 30-40 more hours a week, and I have been finding time to do some projects with my wife around the house before the baby comes, etc.  I mean I know this all sounds like pixy dust or something, but it's true!

Bottom line, the tasks that used to stress me out (and when I get stressed out, I generally just try to push through it, not let it out in healthy ways), are not stressing me out.  I used to think of many simple activities and tasks as "chores", when now I just realize the cost or benefit in completing or not completing a task.  Better yet, it's almost like the word "task" doesn't even register right now, it just feels like a fulfilled life.

I have started my workout routine again, I have had friends in town this week which I have not seen in a while, I spent several hours today watching some tv (I rarely choose into that anymore) and working with my wife on some projects, and.....my "boss" asked me to fly him down in our plane tomorrow to Portland - for a golf tournament!  I will be ending the day with dinner at some friends house with my wife, and getting up on Saturday to go play some flag football that a friend just invited me to!!!  I mean, I know I'm rambling here, but I can't make this stuff up!  It feels as though when I made the conscious choice to "Self-honor", what actually happened was "Self-honoring" chose me!

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